I’ve been busy.
School started, which brought on a ton of homework, projects and running back and forth.
My job began, filling the hours in between school drop offs and picks ups with caring for the sweetness of a little boy just turned one year old.
My body fails me, ready for bed by 5pm when my family and the day still run full steam ahead.
I’ve been busy…and in being busy, I’ve become lazy.
“Oh, shoot, I meant to do that
” and “Wow, where did the time go?
” have become my mantras, as the words pour out of my lips like a verbal band-aid. And, I suppose that somewhere deep inside, that I truly do hope that God will let the words fit over the wound of neglect and compromise like a cast…but inside, I know they just can’t for broken relationship is a wound that festers, left unattended.
And so, I rise early this morning…to find the peace that flows purely from a relationship unhindered.
I come, wrapped in a blanket and a refreshed hope that He is still the same One that I knew when I met with Him before.
I sit with an open mind and Bible…seeking to be filled, once again, with His companionship that is the band-aid and cast my heart most desperately needs.
And, from the quiet recesses of morning yet unbroken, He pours truth over me in a warm cascade:
“Let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith,
having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience
and having our bodies washed with pure water.
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess,
for He who promised is faithful.”
I’ve done myself no favors in trying to fight my own battles…and in staying so busy that I haven’t even the time to think of Him let alone cling to Him…and in pretending that it didn’t matter.
I’ve done myself no good service…and yet, this morning in the thick quiet that hovers with the sun’s first break, I find Him laced with favor and grace…ready to cover me in the good that I have been lacking on my own.
What a mighty God we serve, my friends!!
What about you?
Where has God met you since I was last visible among the fields of the blogger?
Really…I want to know.
I’ve missed you…but am back to looking up as always…