So much has been going on in my life…and most of it has been the drama playing out within my heart and my mind. I am sure you can relate…the ‘what ifs’ that try to hold you back ~ the voices that scream out all that you already believe to be true even when they aren’t ~ the weight that threatens to pull you down and under the waves that seems to crash no matter where you look.
*sigh* It is tiring running from myself…and in doing so, I neglected to be thankful last week.
I wish I could excuse it all away by listing all the reasons why, but the truth is I didn’t want to do it. I wanted to hole up and feel sorry for myself…and so I did. Not my proudest moment, but is just the truth of who I am. I am the type of person who tries to hide when it all comes crashing in…and sometimes, I succeed and that is…well, it is me…plain and simple
But…I am back. I am coming out of a week where I have tried to outrun my thoughts and failed, only to find that my God is still the great God He always has been…despite my forgetful and often control-oriented heart. Praise HIM! 🙂
In my “middle-of-the-week-of-this-crazed-hyperactivity-that-is-my-life” tradition, I lay out the things that I see each day that I know are gifts from God…soft, sweet kisses to my cheeks. If you want more info on what this is, where I got the idea from or why I am doing it, you should start with my first post on Grace Gifts here.
I liked the format I used last week, of listing and counting at the end, so am going to do that again.
And away I go:
Real Housewives of Atlanta
….no, not because of the drama
but because of the laughter that “I don’t feel so good” snuggles
comes in the texts from Iowa
about the drama
Picture Mail Necklaces
Email from you guys…
…with people from years past
Yellow Daisies Predicted Rain
…that grow by my front door
…full of dreams
….and then winning one!
My husband’s soft words of love
The sound of the dog‘s snore
Love notes from two great Uncles
…I love them both so….
…to make a trip to see family possible
Texas, Iowa, New York LOVE
Kids making dinner two nights in a row…just because
And, of course, God and His willingess to:
~ pour down 2 days worth of kisses, even as I sulked
~ love me so much that it makes my heart hurt
~ favor me with kindness, fully not deserved
~ notice me
~ hear me
~ really know me
He just IS
& it blows my mind!
And there they are….my Grace Gifts….89 thru 122
They are simple…some make me laugh and some make me take a deep breath…but all are lovely and pure…all are excellent and true…all are real. They are the blessings that make up my life…they are my the physical showing of grace from God’s hand….and they cause my cup to run over!
What are yours?
Listening to reflective silence while looking up as always…