O Lord, there are just days when the attempts to sit and write are overpowered by the desire to shut the mind off…to stop thinking and thereby stop feeling. But You call me even now. You know that if I sit here to write, I will give myself over to You and Your overwhelming love. You know that my heart doesn’t have the strength to pull from You…and You also know that it has no desire to be anywhere but at Your feet, wrapped in Your warm embrace. The truth echos in the currents of the night air…it whispers to me, trying to remind me that to focus upwards will give me the strength I crave but can’t seem to find. It will show me how to let go of the voices that keep me tethered to the pain of my brokenness.
But even in knowing this truth, I pray that You would come quickly to save me, God. I need Your help. May those who seek to misjudge my heart’s intentions be put to shame and confusion. May those who seek to threaten my reputation be turned back in disgrace. May those who seek to say “Ha!” to my face be forced to look upon their own shame. But I pray for all those who choose to walk with me as we seek You – may they rejoice and be glad in You. May anyone who longs for Your salvation from the troubles of life always say “The Lord is great!”
*based on Psalm 70 and the honest reflections of my heart today*
Listening to Meredith Andrew’s Draw Me Nearer while looking up as always…